I wanted to taste the air of the night
Through your mouth-
Lips and on your breath,
Tangled on your tongue;
But Damon,
I’ve never felt an aching quite like you.
I’ve regretted moments-
The night I sighed-
Or lost a vein.
A night or two I’ve felt a dream,
Woke up just to drown in the blood of own pain.
No river drowns my heart;
And no ocean could drown me,
No bath tub
Lake
Or creek beside
Could end the life I lead.
Just one or two or three more times,
I’ve counted up to 12;
No life I’ve led is worth the loss
That I gave up after having held.
…And I love you.
I never said, so deep,
In the woods when you had me,
But I love you.
The roofs…the drink…the stars.
All the sundust in my eyes.
I miss your smell…
Your prickly skin and all the crystal skies
That you gave to me.
Our hands were intertwined as we
Swept through evergreens and oaks;
You left Doves Foot Cranesbill behind my ear…
We could go to Canada,
Its just like London, you see?
I could slip away with you
If you sat right beside me.
My toes have all lost feeling
Except the energizing sickness of remorse;
Now you’re in a garden with her
And a child
Just a stone made home that I wanted
To share-
But you made it with her-
And I’m lost….
I drink because I gave you up…
My feet on the sand and your pictures of me
Felt so relevant;
When I’ve been so lonely for so long.
So long.
No river drowns my heart;
And no ocean could drown me,
No bath tub
Lake
Or creek beside
Could end the life I lead.
I hope I die without you.
I hope I die while you’re still around.
I miss the fragrance on your lips
And how your breath felt on my shoulders
At night.
And virgin bones
For you to swallow.
The music, every kiss you etched to me
Has been like no other;
You stole me-
Every one of your breaths soars
The skies to find me…
To leave me your verse.
And the branches rain like Seattle burns.
